I still remember the message my pastor told us last Sunday. It touched my heart so greatly that I just wanted to cry. It was really true to me.

Yes, I usually feel insecure. Lonely. I find myself sulking silently, quietly sometimes. And yet, I keep saying that I am grateful of my current surroundings, the present people working and moving around me. Doesn't it sound pretty absurd? You said you feel grateful and still you weep for the past to come back.

Yes, that's ridiculous. But then again, I keep finding myself on that situation. Life is really full of ups and downs that you just don't know who to trust anymore. That you just don't understand yourself anymore.

However, the sermon last Sunday reminded me that I really don't have to be so worried after all. I guess, when I come to being a worrywart again, I'll just say "Don't look on yourself or you'll get defeated. Don't look on your surroundings or you'll get distracted. Rather. look on Jesus Christ and you'll be delighted."

I know, guys, that this sounds very 'religious' again. Sorry, this is my diary.